We are "Nobody" with a voice

I have been glued to television for past 4 days and feeling so much that I don't know which feeling to highlight first. As it started, this time it was different because in case of Bombs, you atleast could stay home. What do you do with the face of terrorism staring at you. Yes staring at you with as casual an attitude to kill anyone senselessly. Now where do you go for safety. It is an attack right in our homes that are supposed to be safe. I can't even imagine what so many hostages would have gone through. I have been praying for them - the ones who have left us, the ones who have survived and will never forget the days and the ones who are left with a void.

I don't want all to forget this and in my own capacity plan to do my bit. I feel that be any government, no one is procative. If a government has to lay down plans against terrorism now after 4.5 Years of them being in power, it is nothing but shame. If you can't put processes right and we don't feel safe even in our homeland, you have lost our trust bigtime. And Yes I have acted in my capacity as a voter by going to the polling booth, resgistering my presence and signing that I DON'T WANT TO VOTE FOR ANY PARTY AND GETTING IT SIGNED BY THE PRESIDING OFFICER(ACCORDING TO RULE 49-0 OF INDIAN CONSTITUTION ACT)

I was also wondering that the government (any actually) can't provide safety at basic level for women working late or walking on the street post 8pm in winters or summers - expecting them to actually have been ready for an outside attack is asking too much. My condolences at the state that any government is(sarcastically).

But I have expectations out of people - THE NOBODY of today. The faceless citizen who is nobody but makes 90% India. So my appeal goes to us - The Nobody's to keep voicing and we will make it be heard.

Your's Nobody

Am wanting to know How am I

Very rarely. Infact I don't remember when had I to ask myself - Are you fine and literally struggling for an answer. I always knew I am fine and happy in whatever condition. But today is different. I really don't know how am I doing?? It hurts to see myself smile for no reason and hurts deeper to see myself sad for many reasons. Really as someone mentioned Chutkara hi nahi hai.

The minute I look ahead to walk forward I wonder Why? Why should I be vunerable to betrayels, lies and filth. I have also wondered that Is there something called trust, honest, shame, morals and many other similar qualities in this world.
And all I feel now is that people just use each other and few like us who don't fall in this category feel useless. Yes maybe I feel useless when I see the majority of people and the sick mentality.

Then somewhere deep down I have a very strong beleif in myself that sort of refuses to bow down to such forces. What a comic tussle I am in for.
Really sometimes to have faith and walk with head held high and sometimes feeling a complete useless piece of junk.

As I write, I feel that never in my life I may have thought that I would put myself one level down to what (that also I don't know)

Confusingly Yours